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(Yawn...) Spent half a day outside with Renee, Fishball, Li Ee and Yap. Feel like so long didnt go out with them and I feel so happy going out with them today. It's kinda like seeing old frens after a long while, although we got meet each other in campus sometimes la. lolz... I like going out with only a few frens but not a bunch of frens, like we used to previously. It's much much easier in making decision on where to go wat to do and less argument.

We went for a movie first around 12.20pm. Watched Night at the Musuem. Nice man.. Wont regret for paying the tics to watch. So funny and i luv the ending! HAPPY ENDING~~~ Later we went for lunch at Padang Pahlawan. Ate 乌东面 which costs me RM5.50 + a RIBENA RM 1.80. Not bad but i prefer the Korean 海鲜拉面. Anyway, we shopped for around 30minutes before bowling. Darn i feel like sooo freaking regret for buying new clothes so soon. Now i have no money to buy clothes at Padang Pahlawan man. I dun even dare to try on the clothes afraid that I'll buy if i try them on. However, i still got tried some la. Afterall it's kinda weird for a girl who went to shop without trying any clothes. hohoho~~~

I didnt play bowling but watched them playing. Yap scored highest 66, Renee 55, and last is Fishball 20sth only. lolz... I was thinking about him when they were playing sial. Now i understand why songs always got "I cant stop thinking of you". Aiks... Its happening on me now. Anyway, I can feel that i'm slowly recovering now since I found out that: There's no point for me to be unhappy also wat... If he got contact me then I just be happy lor... If not, there's nothing to lose also. lolz... Lame...

Eeee... Just now Mr. "hak yan zhang" Pat Pat YM me. I didnt reply him because he is soo damm cheap man. Acting like wanna chase me behind of gf but infront of gf, he dun even dare to look at me man. LAMO!!! FXXX HIM!!! !@#$@$%!

Nothing much happened after that... Just normal stuff and help daddy did something bad to society of Melaka or even JB. My sincere apologize to them. Lolz...

^u^ The Truth ^u^

Went with his good fren for lunch today. I was wondering why I agreed to eat with him. Maybe it's normal fren stuff o wat. Anyway, briefly knew what is his problem already. Got it from his fren. 原来, he was facing relationships problem. "苦笑!" Why? Because i asked him b4 whether it's relationship problem but he said no wor... Lolz... He really got no feeling on me.. Now i'm seriouly no regret of my decision to give up on him. Aiks... That's what i always do... GIVE UP! Dunno y when cum to Girls and Guys thing, I just cant give in. No confidence i guess. I had seen a lot of unhappy couple. Including my parents. Maybe tat's y i got no confidence in this kinda stuff. Pity ya...

Okay.. So today still failed to forget him. Adoi... However, i found something to keep my mind occupied! Guess wat? Its puzzle! Suddenly feel like playing puzzle. Then, i took the one i bought few years ago, 1000 pieces-F4 poster puzzle. 1000 PIECES man....! Wow... At least by puzzling, i wont think of him to much la.

Going to Langkawi on next next week. Dun really hav the mood now but hopefully i will got the mood in two weeks time. Really wish it will be a good and nice nice trip. Heard tat the Ferrero Vochelle there is damm cheap. 30biji for RM18+ only.... I WANT TO BUY TAT!!! I think I'll spent damm lot of money for tis trip. Damm... I should knew tis since Im going with a bunch of rich kids. A bit regret for joining them now... Shh... Cannot let them know tis... Talking about Langkawi, heard from his fren tat he is at Langkawi today. Lolz... Now im thinking about him again! Darn!

Tat's all about today. Better sleep b4 my pimples get more and more!!! Goodnite!

''u'' << A New Day Has Come >> ''u''

Blimey... Yesterday too tired until no enerygy to update blog... Actually planning to update after taking a nap at 11.30pm. But somehow, I failed to wake up and sleep until this morning. haha...

Had a chat with Sg Biao Jie yesterday. Told her bout my feeling with 小金人and she gav me some advice. She told me to tell him wat i feel towards him straight away and dun popo mama. She is quite true but anyway, I wont do that because i m afraid tat we wont even be fren later. LMAO!!! She also told me her experience. She said that she like a guy b4 and she tell him that she like him. The guy's didnt reject but he act like he dun like her. Then she was so angry and tat's all for their friendship. Now, she also got a bf already. He's her good fren that they've known each other for almost 10yrs! haha... She said that its better to accept a guy who like u more than u like him. yeah... I AGREED! Tat's y i was thinking not to be so 执著 anymore. If we got 缘分, we'll get together at last also. I didnt reply his sms yesterday. I think it's a good step to 放开! Wish me luck! haha....

I put this title "A New Day Has Come" because i want to be back the normal LSK, the one without Feeling with any guy. Only myself, family and frens. Tat's all. It's kinda difficult since i still keep on thinking about him whole day! I even dream about him. Bloody Hell! haha... Sounds stupid but this really happened! In my dream, there was not only me n him but also my frens. We were so happy. I was so happy. Can feel tat 幸福 even when i was awake. lalala~~~ haha... 原来只要能够和他一起，我就非常开心! Eventough we are not couple. eee... Sounds sooooo freaking 肉麻!

Anyway, I'LL DO MY BEST! I'll try and try not to think about him and keep my mind occupied with other stuff. I'm goin to rent my lovest 小说 and read. YEAH!!! GANBATEI KUDASAI!!! 加油哦，喵喵。天下无难事，只怕有心人！你一定可以从这一切抽身出来的！

*~~* A tiring day *~~*

Oh my~~~ Today is really a very tiring day man... Went to shopping at JJ with family early in the morning from 10.30am till 6sth pm. Sounds crazy but it really happened! Anyway, tis isn't the 1st time la... lmao! Bought a few new clothes for CNY. Looks nice when i tried in JJ but dunno why when i try them on at home, i felt i shouldnt buy those clothes la. Why? hmm... Daddy said its not nice at all and it doent look fashionate enough... In addition, he blamed my mom didnt help me to pick nice clothes. Mom was freaked out when she heard tat. Then, arguements begin. Damm it! I feel that im a BLOODY PEST for causing all these troubles man... aiks... 伤脑筋呀...

I tried to pleased both of my old buddy here but somehow i just dun feel happy lor. Just take tis picking clothes as example. I cant actually get any useful tips from them to choose the clothes i want. So far, i didnt actually buy clothes on my own due to financial difficulties. So, i have to go out with them to buy if i wan them to pay for me... hehe... Conflicts occurs between 2 generations when come to fashion lor. My dad prefer me to wear sporty but mom prefer me to be lady like... funny rite? they cant come to a compromise or watever... hiah... My bro told me tis:"我喜欢的衣服他们都不喜欢，他们认为好看的衣服，我都觉得还ok罢了。所以，我不喜欢和他们一起去买。而每次出去时，我都好像在应酬他们，买他们喜欢的衣服." Bro also have the same feeling with me. haha...

When my mom told me about Irene, my dad's "close gf", that my dad will like watever Irene did, i was so annoyed. I really wish that i m couraged enough to ask my dad whether he got an affair with Irene. haih... 好烦！My frens said that our family's relationship is very good. My dad is very sporty, my mom is very nice person. I was laughing inside when i hear tat everytime man. Our relationship is good? Wat i see through our relationship is pretending and pleasing each other! chiu~~~!

Finish bout my family, now is my own problem. Although i know that i shouldnt put too much feeling on someone who dont like me but 他妈的 i cant stop thinking about him! Bloody Hell... We now communicate much much lesser and i'm getting weird when didnt chat with him one day. 我现在的心情好像在被他牵着走, 能够和他谈天, 我就已经很开心! 感觉好变态哦! 干脆喜欢“兔子”就好了嘛! 干吗去喜欢“小金人”啊! "兔子" 人又好又体贴，我干嘛不喜欢, 却喜欢对我毫无感觉的小金人! Stupid Sial!!!

Today, in the very first week of January 2007, i cried. Haha... I cried in the bathroom while bathing and let the water carry my tears away. This is a negative symbol to achieve my 2007 LSK Vision. Anyway, I'll try my best to reach my vision. GOOD LUCK TRACY! U CAN DO IT!

First Blog

OHAYO~~~!!!.... its 1 o'clock in the morning and i just started my ever 1st blog! I wonder how long my blog will last since i'm not really sure tat i'll update my blog from time to time... Anyway, i'll just try...

What inspired me to start a blog? Well, i wanted to find someone to talk to but somehow i tot of nobody who willing to listen in addition i dun want to make my frens think i'm a pessimist. The moral of my life: Make everybody around me HAPPY!!! aiks... In real world, human wont be satisfied and no matter how much effort in put in, they just wont appreciate it. As a result, no matter how much effort i put in to make people around me happy, it just dont work! PATHETIC ya...

SO, tat's y i created a blog hoping i could throw my "sorrow" away through the blog, and share my happiness with it oso... hohoho!!! Can i do tat? Let's see!

Just now i went to Italy Bakery together with my mom. My mom is working on the bakery's account and got no time chit chat with me. As a result, i spent 2 hrs doing nth there but looking people walking around. It was so damm boring and i was hoping that someone could call me or sms me to chit chat... Actually i was just hoping of someone else la. hehe... however, the "someone" i was thinking did not contact me... But, "someone else" who i rejected before contact me and we did some chats. looks like he had recevered and now we can talk as usual... Its kinda SAD becoz i rejected someone who loved me so much, but instead, i like someone who wont like me... NONSENSE rite... ceh...

aiks... its all for now... although i still have to throw a lot of thing out... lmao!!! chiaoz... nitez...