I miss my family already!

2009/06/13, I moved to Pelangi Utama, Bandar Utama, Damansara, to begin another step of my life. I have to go through many challenges this time: the challenge of living away from my family, the challenge of communicate with house mates (this is the very first time!), the challenge of getting around with colleagues, challenge of getting used with my work, etc etc.

I know this choice of working in KL is always my dream, to live without my parents' help is always what i want, to let my brothers independent is what i must, and letting go is a necessity in my life. But, now, at this moment, i really miss my family so much! Exspecially ah Zun! A week before i came to KL, Zun had been sticking with me all the time! Even when sleeping! He told me that I'm goin to KL soon so he want spend every single minute with me even when sleeping so i let him sleep with me for that week. Hmm.. When i woke up just now, and i didnt saw his face, i cried.. I MISS HIM SO DAMN MUCH!Though he is feaking naughty, but he listens to me so well. He dun listen to my parents, my elder brother, but he do listens to me! I'm very worry that he'll become bad when he gets older coz no one talk to him or observe him. hmm.. Daddy mommy i really hope u two take good care of my brothers. Hmm.. i miss them so much!

I really cried a lot already. I dont want to be a stupid lady who only knows to cry! I must be strong! I must get over everything! I must earn enough money, go back my hometown, open a cafe, and be with my family again..! Yeah.. Tat's my dream! My bf told me that he want to move to KL forever. But I dont. I did told him before that i will not stay forever in KL. Not what i want. But he told me ytd that he want to stay KL forever. I can't leave my family behind. If i have to choose, family first! So i'll stick with my plan, earn money now, do business in Melaka later.