Oops I did it again!

I m sorry for not having any feelings on you. I just got failed in love affairs and all i want is friendship not a close relationship with u... Hope u understand...

Im feeling sooo bad these days. I dont laugh as i laugh before; I cry a lot more now; I make myself smile everyday so that people around me wont feel bad with me. I hate the me now. I prefer the me i used to be. The me who do not know anyting, who were still innocent and blur. Being crossed in love is just a small matter, i used to think. JS said i can recover by finding a replacement and he can become my replacement. lol. Thx u so much but does it really works? Well, till now i dun think so. It's me who keep on troubling you i guess... Shit i really wish to go back to the past and delete the happy memories i used to have so that i wont feel that bad now! Oh man come on SK u r lame!!! U must not keep on being in the past. There will always be a better tomorrow! Look forward!!! SMILE... I tell this to myself everytime i cry. Sigh... Self psycho.

Xmas is coming... Dunno wanna go out with who. Worst come to worst, who oso dun wan follow.
Stay at home study suan liao. I dun like this xmas la... Makes me think a lot of sad thing. Sien. Suppose to study today but somehow, no mood to study man. Damn it! The weather is sux, mood is sux, and everything's sux! Come on man.. The world should be a happy world but wat am i doin here sighing and doing nothing. How i wish i can go around the world now. I wan to go beach, watch sea... go Japan see their technology.. go Korea eat barbecue chicken, go America Hollywood, go Australia find fren, go New Zealand see their farm, go Paris drink coffee, go visit Mars...

What m i doin here wasting my bloody time looking at the boring screen typing this freaking blog? Well, it's because im stil under parental control! Thx to those f**king criminals who rape so many gals, who killed so many innocents and ... ( ARGHH... THEY ARE JUST PIECE OF JERK WHO CONTRIBUTE NTH TO THE SOCIETY, BUT CRIMES AND BRING INNOCENTS TO DEATH ) Because of them, my lovely parents think this world is so dangerous for a gal like me to go out alone. Oh man... I'm waiting for my industrial training so that i got reason to move out and stay alone without parents' control. If not i'll never learn and go everywhere.

*~~* A tiring day *~~*

Oh my~~~ Today is really a very tiring day man... Went to shopping at JJ with family early in the morning from 10.30am till 6sth pm. Sounds crazy but it really happened! Anyway, tis isn't the 1st time la... lmao! Bought a few new clothes for CNY. Looks nice when i tried in JJ but dunno why when i try them on at home, i felt i shouldnt buy those clothes la. Why? hmm... Daddy said its not nice at all and it doent look fashionate enough... In addition, he blamed my mom didnt help me to pick nice clothes. Mom was freaked out when she heard tat. Then, arguements begin. Damm it! I feel that im a BLOODY PEST for causing all these troubles man... aiks... 伤脑筋呀...

I tried to pleased both of my old buddy here but somehow i just dun feel happy lor. Just take tis picking clothes as example. I cant actually get any useful tips from them to choose the clothes i want. So far, i didnt actually buy clothes on my own due to financial difficulties. So, i have to go out with them to buy if i wan them to pay for me... hehe... Conflicts occurs between 2 generations when come to fashion lor. My dad prefer me to wear sporty but mom prefer me to be lady like... funny rite? they cant come to a compromise or watever... hiah... My bro told me tis:"我喜欢的衣服他们都不喜欢，他们认为好看的衣服，我都觉得还ok罢了。所以，我不喜欢和他们一起去买。而每次出去时，我都好像在应酬他们，买他们喜欢的衣服." Bro also have the same feeling with me. haha...

When my mom told me about Irene, my dad's "close gf", that my dad will like watever Irene did, i was so annoyed. I really wish that i m couraged enough to ask my dad whether he got an affair with Irene. haih... 好烦！My frens said that our family's relationship is very good. My dad is very sporty, my mom is very nice person. I was laughing inside when i hear tat everytime man. Our relationship is good? Wat i see through our relationship is pretending and pleasing each other! chiu~~~!

Finish bout my family, now is my own problem. Although i know that i shouldnt put too much feeling on someone who dont like me but 他妈的 i cant stop thinking about him! Bloody Hell... We now communicate much much lesser and i'm getting weird when didnt chat with him one day. 我现在的心情好像在被他牵着走, 能够和他谈天, 我就已经很开心! 感觉好变态哦! 干脆喜欢“兔子”就好了嘛! 干吗去喜欢“小金人”啊! "兔子" 人又好又体贴，我干嘛不喜欢, 却喜欢对我毫无感觉的小金人! Stupid Sial!!!

Today, in the very first week of January 2007, i cried. Haha... I cried in the bathroom while bathing and let the water carry my tears away. This is a negative symbol to achieve my 2007 LSK Vision. Anyway, I'll try my best to reach my vision. GOOD LUCK TRACY! U CAN DO IT!