A Story..

This is a story of a prince and a princess..

Once upon a time.. there was a princess.. named.. Princess Sophie Kristen.. she fell in love with a.. monkey.. after going through all sorts of challenges.. they kissed.. and.. ta da!! the monkey became the prince.. his name is.. Prince Merlyn Kenniston..

They lived happily.. but not yet ever after.. not yet..

They lived in a small house.. A house where they thought it shall be their sweet little palace forever ever after.. Although they faced a lot of obstacles staying together in the little house.. they were happy.. the house was comfortable.. the piglets.. and the birds.. and the naughty monkeys.. were nice and friendly.. although they were not very clean.. but one day.. A fat ugly looking wolf in red hat.. has destroyed their sweet little house.. the birds fly away.. the monkey moved to other place.. and the piglets.. leave the sweet little house.. left the prince and princess..

The Prince and the Princess had no choice.. but to look for another sweet little house.. they wish..


... to be continue

My closest friends in the world..

I miss them always.. hehe.. they are the most important person in my life!! shh.. i didnt tell them about this..! hehe..

4th Day of Work

Today's friday, 19th June 2009. It's my 4th day of work.. How do i feel? hmm.. I feel.. complicated, frustrated, confused, happy, sad, suffer, blur and etc etc. Mixed feeling i can say.. It's really tiring remembering this process, that process, approvals by who and who, do and dons.. Aiks!! Lucky Ah Dear keeps on be patient with me and motivates me throughout the week. Thank you Dear!!

Its really difficult to begin a life in IBM because I have to get new friends, get used to the new working environment as well as the new staying environment.. time to work! Alrighto! Jia You SK!! Go go go!!!!!!!

Miss miss miss!!!

I miss them so much!!! MISS MISS MISS!!! I miss them a lot!! hmm.. Crazy me..

I miss my family already!

2009/06/13, I moved to Pelangi Utama, Bandar Utama, Damansara, to begin another step of my life. I have to go through many challenges this time: the challenge of living away from my family, the challenge of communicate with house mates (this is the very first time!), the challenge of getting around with colleagues, challenge of getting used with my work, etc etc.

I know this choice of working in KL is always my dream, to live without my parents' help is always what i want, to let my brothers independent is what i must, and letting go is a necessity in my life. But, now, at this moment, i really miss my family so much! Exspecially ah Zun! A week before i came to KL, Zun had been sticking with me all the time! Even when sleeping! He told me that I'm goin to KL soon so he want spend every single minute with me even when sleeping so i let him sleep with me for that week. Hmm.. When i woke up just now, and i didnt saw his face, i cried.. I MISS HIM SO DAMN MUCH!Though he is feaking naughty, but he listens to me so well. He dun listen to my parents, my elder brother, but he do listens to me! I'm very worry that he'll become bad when he gets older coz no one talk to him or observe him. hmm.. Daddy mommy i really hope u two take good care of my brothers. Hmm.. i miss them so much!

I really cried a lot already. I dont want to be a stupid lady who only knows to cry! I must be strong! I must get over everything! I must earn enough money, go back my hometown, open a cafe, and be with my family again..! Yeah.. Tat's my dream! My bf told me that he want to move to KL forever. But I dont. I did told him before that i will not stay forever in KL. Not what i want. But he told me ytd that he want to stay KL forever. I can't leave my family behind. If i have to choose, family first! So i'll stick with my plan, earn money now, do business in Melaka later.

I'm graduating!!

Wow! Oh me god! its been almost a year since i update my blog! Actually i did open my blog and check the comments from time to time, just that too bz and lazy to update my blog..

What am i so bz for? hmm.. Good question! After my industrial training, i went bac Melaka, my precious hometown and move on in my last semester of studies.. During the 6 mths stay in Melaka, chaos happens in my house. The truth was reveiled and at first 3 of us (the siblings and me) were totally not used to it! I myself 100% cannot get used to it. I was emotionally brokedown! Luckily i got an understanding and caring darling beside me at this very time. If i have to face it alone, i think i'll be depressed!

However, time flies, and i'm getting over this emotinal breakdown pretty well now. My family is getting over the chaos pretty well too! At times, i were wondering, is it because i'm leaving them in 2 days time o they really do get over it? Mommy especially i'm worry about, and Tao. Plz.. Plz love yourself and your family.. I dun wan to pray to god.. coz mostly wat i pray will always happens in the opposite way.. But plz.. Live lif

e to the max and appreciates what you got now!

Anyway, that's not the only thing that i was bz during the 6 mths time. Second thing that kepts me bz was my darling dear! Ever since i got into this relationship with him, I've been so bz every weekend~We spend most of the time together during weekends because he only bac from his college during weekend. I'm~~ not so sure whether he's the one, but to be frank, he is a very good person. Compare to the previous ones! And we sacrificed for each other and love each other very much. I dun dare to talk about happily ever after, but i am very happy with him NOW. About future, let the FUTURE ME handle bout tat.. Though he got one weakness, which is very emotional! But i'll get over it.. haha.. God bless him! This is him!

I love his smile.. Very cheerful!

Well, you must be curious about where the hell am i goin in 2 days time? Haha.. Not very far.. Just goin over KL to begin my OL life! I'm commencing my employment in IBM Damansara next tuesday! It a good news rite? But i heard lots of rumors that workin there sux! Is it real? Well i'll ya next week! haha..

Wokie dokie.. Its time to send my car to check.. (so that i will not get involved in accident on the way to KL.. I dun wan die b4 i can repay my parents!) Gotta go.. Adios!

Fucking Politicians

Why? I dun understand! Seriously dun understand even a tiny little bit on what the heck is in their fk mind! Ever since i'm here in Selangor or some said KL, all i'd been hearing in the daily news are regarding MR AI wanna take over the damn bloody power to control Malaysia. Isnt there more things that were much much much much more important in this world other than fightin on who's got the controlling poower over this small country?? Frankly speaking i dont really giv a damn on who's our leader. I'm more concern on global warming, taking care of the handicapped, donating to the poor among the poors.

When everyone araound me bz commenting on the current government, i saw plenty of beggars in the street. But no one there helping them! I tried once, in pasar malam, giving each beggar RM 1, guess how much i donated?! Bugger!!! Isn't this an issue worth discussing for other than politics??!

Malaysia economy. Fucker it was freaking damn poor now. Look at our currency RM. LOOOOK! How much does it worth now? How much can we exchange our RM to pounds? ACCA fees RM 700+, but 50 over pounds only. SO SAD!!! My dear boyfriend exchange RM with pounds to pay for his exam fees. When i look the the amount of pounds he exchanged, oh me god~~~ So few only?! Isn't this a topic worth discussing for?

Malaysia weather. Even worst!!! Malaysia global warming is getting worst and worst over these days. It can be very very hot and too sunny in the morning, but raining heavily iin the evening. Did we had this kind of weather 10 yrs ago?! NO! Isn't this an issue worth discussing for? But look what we Malaysian did?! We always complain and complain about how failling our government is. I got no right to comment on whether is this true o not. But since we have this energy to complain, protest, discriminate and fight, why don't we spend our bloody time to take care of this illing world and economy???

I'm really sick with those people who keeps on commenting but never act!!! So pleeease god, can you plzzzz change these people's mind and guide them to live happily???

Oh my god... what happen to this world???!

Working hard... Healthy life...

OHAYO.... hahaha... it should be konnichiwa actually since its now 7pm already! Still in office but didnt work. Instead, i got the permission to online... soooo freakin happy.. Okay.. I want to talk about my working life in KL. Till now, after a month and a half stay in Kelana Jaya with my aunty, i am more than great! Kinda relaxing actually. No need study at night, no assigments, only work in the day, relax in the night. I was kinda lucky coz i got a very nice aunty who is an excellent cook, baker and player :) She lives a very healthy life here. Morning walk with her bunch of old friends in the morning around 6.30am. Went with her once, it's freaking early! I can barely wake up! But i still managed to wake up and went oout with her. I guess it's my first and last man.. Laugh my ass out!

My aunt has 2 daughters. One is friendly, lovely. Another who recommended me to train in her office is like big sister kinda people. She talks softly, serious. At first i wasn't so get used to it. But after some time, we got along! Though she's quiet but she's caring. She got the ambition to adopt a child and help the poors. She thinks that she must contribute and help the others when she can earn money. It's cool rite? haha...

What's my thought licing in KL? hmm.. Other than rushing for bus on Fridays to go back Melaka, others are fine! I hate that Pudu bus station. Those people were harsh, rude, creepy and they look at me one kind. Fucker! I hate that place but what to do? I still have to go there because i wanna go back melaka c my daddy and mommy...

Oh no... It's time to go home... Will update this blog again once i got the chance to on9. Chiaoz! Luv everyone who view my blog!!!

What a month!

Wow...! Its been a while since my last blog! Industrial training had finally started and it's already been a month! Now got 5 more months to go! Frankly speaking i am quite enjoying my life here in KL, despite the fact that i have to work here!

hmm... It's not as bad as i thought in my working life. So far so good. Over a month i saw joy, happiness, angry. Yeah.. I get scolded sometimes in my work place. But it's still not that bad! I still can get through with all these! I am seriously getting more happier and cheerful back in KL. I got nothing to worry there. My aunt is cooking damn nice food everyday. She got really good talent in cooking. Everyday different menu, different dishes. She bakes as well! Cakes, bread you name it. She can bake it out. haha... It's really different living with my aunt than living in my home. My fren asked me. Do you miss home? I thought i miss but i didn't. In fact, i miss my family instead of missing home. haha.. Because there were so much to do at home!!! hahaha... I am soooo bad!!!

Within this month, i cried a few times, laugh even more than i live in melaka, and met some new people. Waiting at Kl bus station is a very frightening task. I dun like traveling there but i have to. haha.. It's anyway one kind of experience though. Very the funny. Few frens asked told me that i were so brave working in KL alone. haha! This means that SK will do whatever she said! That's why I'm in KL now. To prove that i can do it!!! hahaha...

yawn... nitez.

~The End~

Whew! Everything has an ending... So is my final exam! So nice the feeling. After 3 weeks of hardwork, tiredness, sleepiness, boringness and so on so forth, finally my exams' over! This is the second last final exam in MMU. Next Saturday, I will be off to KL and starts my industrial training life. I am seriously very superb excited of this coming 6 months. Hopefully i can really enjoy this 6 months and learn something new, academically, emotinally as well as phsychologically =p

Alright. What did i do after my exam? hmm... Good question. What else better that I can do other than go Karaoke and express my talent, singing?! haha.. I think i sang like nobody business yesterday and sorry to my frens for holding the god-damn mic so long. We had an early birthday celebration with Florence as well. Happy Birthday to you gal! At the end of the night, we had a little huggies among ourselves. So very touching! This is the last gathering i guess. hmm... I have mixed feelings now... Happiness, sadness... I'll sure miss them.

I got some comment from my frens and cousins regarding my blog. Some said my blog is emo, some said im cam whore?! haha... I'm proud of that! Im young now, i want to take as many pictures as i could now. I dun wan to wait till my wrinkles come out. By then i will not take pictures anymore coz i'll look ugly! haha... I might be emo, but it's becoz of the environment im living, thet im encountering now. I'm still a happy go lucky girl! Dont worry couz! I wil not lost myself! lmao!

Drunk

Can drinking helps problem solving? Well, i just encountered a situation where, yeah, drinking can really solve the bloody problem. But i think it's only applied to people who are not a frequent drinker. She drank a quarter bottle of Johnnie Walker in addition 4 cans of smelly stouts. argh... This gal really scared me off in the middle if the night. Damn it! It was a tiring Sunday after studies for final exams. See how bad i look:





Can imagine how tired am I? =) sigh... Students... Ok back to topic! I was called at 2.30am ( hell i can still remember the time! ) , getting ''informed'' that somebody was acting very weird. She was drunk! What the dut! Made me worried whole night, couldn't get good sleep! ish... Anyway, she was drunk becoz of some problem, some relationship problem, in addition with her health problem. She couldnt take it anymore, couldnt sleep every night, worrying about this and that.

Everyone said drinking cant solve problems. But hell it can help the person to relax! I can tell. Im not encouraging people to get drunk everyday. But if you really pissed off, drinking yeah can help you to relax! =P But peace of advice, nothing is impossible! After wake up, its a beautiful day again! Smile and make it a wonderful day!

Daddy bought some bird nest some days ago. Sooo pure sooo nice! Different with those we had previously. He said he bought this because im goin to KL soon! How sweeeeeet... Love ya dad! Because of mother's day and father's day, we bought some presents fot them. Mom got a pair of ear rings and daddy got a pen with he name on it. We also bought a cake for grandma and another pen for our aunty ( sth to cheer her up! ) Hope they like it...

LET GO... what a thing to learn

Let go, is difficult if you want to let go people you love. I had let go someone because I loved him so much that i know letting go is good to him.

My parents have to let me go because they loved me soooo much that they know that letting me go is the best choice for my hapiness.

People who do not let go of their love ones are selfish. Its super hard to let go, hell i can tell! But, if letting go will make the people you love happy, then no point keeping them with you! Everyone has the right to feel happy, i feel happy if i keep him, but he wont be happy if he stays here, therefore i let go. The more you love him, the more you love her, the more you must learn to let him/her go. It's the basic task of love-let go. Before you love someone, learn to let go first!

Ha! Every sentence above has the word 'let go'. At last i experienced and learned this theory. Im proud of myself because im sooo "伟大"!

Cheers~~

Final Papers...

ARgh... The hardest time of the semester has arrive! Final Exams!!! They said this is the time where the lecturers test whether you learned whatever shits they taught during the 4 months. hmm.. Guess what.. I dun think exams are important anymore because i had realized that no matter how freakin excellent u did in your academy, without luck and bunch of LIES, you CANT success in the freaking black dark world outside! ( When i was walking around my campus today, It was so pretty and so green. I started to realize how innocent is my campus compared to the fucking real world! Gosh i will for sure miss my campus! )

Anyway, back to my topic, I still have to study for the sake of my decreasing CGPA, and for my aims to join the BIG 4 after grad. No matter how useless the exams were, I still need a good result as a passport to enter large firms. That is why i had started my revision on the 1st chapter of my Advanced Taxation subject b4 i spend my bloody time on this blog again due to the boredom created by the study. Aiks... Taxation taxation... What a devil subject. It's not difficult i must admit but i was absent for quite a number of classes and missed out quite a lot of lectures. Cant really understand without proper studies. SHIT! But i must pray hard for my Accounting Theory subject because other than the two chapters that i was required to present on, i dont understand even one chapters. And FYI, it needs memorization!!! Damn it.. That's theory. Other subject is OK, at least can understand, i guess... It depends on my brilliant brain to write shits on the papers after understanding the subjects. I can hardly memorize thing. Man i cant even remember what i said 5 minutes ago! Dun believe? Ask my dearest friends who beared with me for such a long period. They must have freaked out some times. Sorry! I will try to remember things. I promise =P

Talking bout exams, i must write something bout the my classmates. In accounting class, It is soooooo freakin common that the students are Singaporean type of people, those kiasu type or in English, scared to lose ( direct translate.. haha ). They will tell everyone on earth that they havent start to study even a single words, that they were soooo lazy to study, that they went karaoke instead of study. Well, Fuck them. Don't trust a single word from accounting students because they talk cock. They will stuck in their rooms, sitting on a chair for 12 hrs or even more to chew the books and notes. That's what they do during exams.

I can even predict they behavior after exams. They will tell you that they did badly in the exams, that they cant remember a single words, that they got no time to finish the paper. Well, Fuck them as well. They are obviously telling lies. Why did i say that? Its simple. Because they did extremely WELL and always scored above 3.99, which is 4.0. Not enough? 4.0 is the highest score! Only those who got poor results will tell you the truth. It is similar with the real world. Only poor people will talk about friendship. Try it on the rich one. They cant wait to pull you down and they dont even border to talk to the lower class of people. Take it. This is the real world. Sad right. I was borned as an innocent, happy girl. But i grew up become a bugger who always complains bout how bad is the world in my blog.

No matter what, life goes on. So, i always asked myself: Why live as a sad person? The world wont changed no matter I'm sad or not. The people dont give a damn. Everyone, piece of advise. BE HAPPY till the end of your life. THE WORLD IS PRETTY IF AND ONLY IF YOU THINK IT IS PRETTY. Don't live like me. I am trying my best to think that the world is pretty. Giv me some time... Muaks!

One Day Takin Over The Bloody Biz

Dad's in trouble this week, cant pick up his hp for around 4 days already. Customers who'd been callin his handphone but couldn't get thru were starting to call to my house phone. Mom's kinda sick with all the phone rangings and fax coming. No one else can help much coz this is our bloody family biz.

We've been tru hard times on last weekend. Mom was exausted, worried, can't get sleep for nites. She's damn worry about daddy and other matters that came with daddy's case. I couldnt help much coz im freakin poor in advising people i guess. Wat i can do is helpin them to handle the two brothers, chores, and cheer things up a little bit.

Today, mom's not around. She's on the way up to KL to solve the problems with some friends. Hopefully everything will be fine after today. But those fucking (oops... shall say LOVELY coz they are our income source... LMAO!) customers were soooooo desperate, needed some alchohol to clear their minds, called to my house to make orders. Who's incharge when I'm the only human in the house? ME! Though tis is not the very 1st time i help in delivery, but i got one customer here who order like half an hour ago, and wants the 6 bloody btls of alchohol in 15 minutes!! What the fuck?! So, I, whom planned to take a nap before receiving his call, have to run all the way down to find those bloody bottles of alchohol, pack it and make it available for sale. It not that i hate him. Just that i hate people disturbin my nap! Slept for 3 hours only last nite, i seriously freaked out! This people disturbin my day plan! Not that he ordered a lot. Say want to send to PD immediately. Then why on earth now only u open ur bloody big smelly mouth to order? Cant you make it earlier like yesterday o wat. As if i care la. But sad thing is, i can only say this in my pity blog which i didnt update for some time, instead of pointing my short finger at his big nose and tell him str8 away! ISH!!! Calm SK, remain CALM.

Another fax came in after EQ fax. Pretty scared when waiting the fax to load. haha. But guess wat. It's an order from JB!!! I can only deliver up to Melaka. Area out of Melaka, sorry la my dear, u guys have to wait..

Takin over the biz for even one day only would already make my life upside down. I guess daddy will have to shut down the biz after he retires because my elder brother told me that he don't like this alchoholic industry. I only like to drink, can help out a bit, but those carry stuff and entertainment, i got a problem to handle it! Not easy for a lady to get into this biz, unless I am very very very very open minded lady, which i think i havent reach tat level of open minded =P. Poor daddy no one can help him out! Younger one might like his biz coz he is also a bloody alchoholic (though now we insist that he can only drink RIBENA when we hve our wine) but hey man, he's just 8 now. It's too young to say anyting now! hahaha...

Wokie... Nothing to write anymore. Im using my time soooo efficiently that i can blog while waiting to meet the bugger (lovely) MR Z to come get this 6 btls of liquor.

H.A.I.H.....

My msn status: C.O.N.F.L.I.C.T. This is really SIEN!!!

Reason? Damn lot! First, i quit aerobics club because i got no time and energy to go duty anymore. And i kinda bored with the club d. So, i quit. But problems seem arised when ppl start thinkin tat i was overly reacted, saying that i quit because i was scolded by someone else for my irresponsiveness, telling me that i shouldnt act so seriously. SWEAT! Quiting the club is actually a small matter but it seems like a huge matter to many people. Why Why??? What happened? I also don't really know.

Secondly, it happened on my parents. They are acting so freaking weird recently. Probably this is why i felt soooo freaking bloody pressure these days. They are like so different compared to they were 10 yrs ago. What happened? Is it me who changed or them? Their attitude is like so diferent now. Or are they were like this all the while just that i didnt notice? This is so annoying! I don't feel like telling them anything anymore because they don't keep secrets. Hell no. Also, my mom loves to comment my daddy infront of us. Comments as in third party XXX. Shit everytime she started this, i really pissed off. He is my dad and i respect him. End of story. Summore we don't even know whether it's true o not!

Thirdly, it's my dad! Oh man as i expected he just can't accept that i'm goin to KL. We don't really directly talk bout tis topic before but he knows that im goin there. He don't like it i can c it on his face. He never asked me anything of my training and i don't know how to tell him either since we dont hav a conversation like this b4. But today, the problem has rose. My uncle asked him why let me go KL? Why not stay in Melaka? Then he told him that he don't want to talk to me on this topic coz he said i will sure not happy with this. So, he also don't want to care bout tis. Alright then, even no one helps me on this, i still have to go there. I don't hope for his help either ever since he show me his face again! Come on, I'm going to KL for 6 months only! t6 months! And it's just KL! Not oversea also. As if i wont come back anymore. What's the problem man? I don't understand at all! Everyone is not supporting my decision but they asked me to make a decision. Shit la.

My friend asked me what makes me so pressure? I went home, think bout tis again and again and I guess these are my answers.

As a result, my philosophy is still correct. "Trust nobody and the one who can help you is always you. Depends on yourself, don't depend on others". Drink a couple cup of wines, then sleep like nobody business, wake up tomorrow and it'll be a new day. Way to go gal!

My friend, all the best!

Dear friend,

There is something i wanted to tell you since long time ago, but i didnt because i scared that you will upset after listened what i said. Therefore, I say it here. Whether you read or not, well it depends already :)

Didnt you noticed that you had changed a lot after you got into this relationship? Especially recently. Look at this semester. How many times had you came for class? I guess i can count it even with my fingers! I can sign for you for life but please dont take things for granted. Remember what you told me about you-know-who? You told me that she was so bad for not going to classes and you said that it's good no one signed for her. It can force her go class. Well, do you know you are becoming her now? I guess i will do the same thing to you now. So that you can go back to class. Sorry my friend!


SEriously i dont want to lose you as a friend because i really like it when we were together back in those days. But we seldom see each other now also. You were always busy and not in class. I really hope that you can balance yourself between FRIENDS, BOY FRIEND & STUDIES.



All the best my friend! Ganbatei Kudasai!

Election... Please do watever it's good to Malaysia, MR POLITICIANS

DAP won a lot of seats in this 2008 election! Wow... It's a good thing ritE? Well, we'll see the results soon. Ganbatei DAP! Good for you! Please make sure you guys wont fight over each other k! Im a fan of peace and dun really care who is the leader for Malaysia. What i really do care is, a peaceful life and good improvement for Malaysia. Please do your job well ya... ^o^

2 mid term exams next week! After tat, mid term break lor... hohoho... After da event i really feeel free. SO freaking relax now. (-_-!!!) Not even feel like studying. But seriously i must work harder now! Results dropped a lot since past few semesters. I wasn't tat scared before this. But after the interview at Horwath for my IT, i am really scared. I think they care for results more than anything else! I think that's why i couldnt get to work there. SK SK, ganbatei kudasai! Stop playing with your life and starts to care for your own life now ba! I must strive for my career in this few years time!!! =p

Now is 10:08am. In an hour time my couz wil come and pray my grandma and grandpa and all the nenek moyang. Well, she is getting married soon! It should be a good, great, wonderful, romantic news, if she's older. She's now 17 only. Not even a mature gal. Sweat!!! Anyway, all i can do is WISH HER ALL THE BEST!!! I'll still give my full support to u couz! Though we are not tat close. (-_-)

Went to work yesterday for a wedding dinner. Coz daddy and mommy went Genting, me n bro hav to handle the function. First time though. I handle the promoting part, while bro take the carrying and opening wine part. One of my aunty also worked together but she was a bit shy at first. For me, i think she was not tat willing to help out. Wonder why she agreed to help in the first place. She said this kinda job is kinda not good. lol. Well, i never tot of that problem before man coz dad was with us everytime. Anyway, there were another 2 promoters as well. They really did a great job! Out of 10 cottons, we managed to sell 8.5 cottons! Even at Hotel EQ we didnt sell that much man! Really out of our expectation!! Not bad huh for the first function we handle! But i really need to make a comment here to the clients. They were not enjoying the wine, they were drinking the wine like water only! Sien~~~

Oops! Time out! Gotta go fetch my dearest bro now. Chao~~~

Japanese Culture Night 2008---DONE!~

After months of hard work, at last the event comes to an end! I'm sure gonna miss it since this is the very last event that i'll organize in MMU. LAst event in my University life~ hohoho... Luckily i didn't fail in the event. Still can be consider a success! yay!!!

Tomorrow is my birthday lor... I used to think that birthday is an important day of my life! But as i grow up, i think it's nothing much to celebrate also. haha... Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEE!!! Dunno whether he will remember or not??? :P

Oh my god having a laptop is sooo cool!!!! Can carry it here n there and soooo convenient! Daddy oso bought a set of speakers to me and it sounds really fantastic!!! Thank you daddy! Luv ya! haha... I know that you want me to be the happiest gal lall the time... I'll try dad... Seriously i will :)

Horwath just called me for an interview on this coming Friday. haha. Should i go Horwath or KL? Well, i think i will go KL. Melaka got a lot of happy memories but also the sad ones. I think i need to go out a while to get those out of my mind.

YAWN... Wat next? Mid Term exams coming. I think i'll start print y notes and start study... hohoho!

Busy life!!!

Dear god, plz provide me with more dancers and performers for my Nite... Amitofo...

Sigh... New semester just only started and i already hav meetings until 12pm for these two days. I wonder until wat time the meeting will end tmr...? Hopefully earlier! The Culture Nite is going quite well, except that there are obstacles of course... This year our even clash with others and we hav to share the hall in order to hav the hall decorated. Sad thing is that we can only hav rehearsals after 9pm, which is quite late for us! Oh my god... Pening! Now i hav to find models and dancers for the nite. sigh... So difficult to organise event for JLS coz the budget is sooo freaking tight. Luckily the band didnt charge us anything except the 100 bucks for the drum set. Really appreciates their coorperation! hmm... Guess we must be more creative to hav designs and plans which have low budget and high performance. Next challenge shall be the tix selling!!! Hopefully it goes well lor...

Tired but cant go sleep. Y? No idea.

My only true heart fren has gone.... GONE!!!

My only fren tat accompany me during these days, so long my fren, so long! My uncle had just took my dearest keyboard away and im feeling sad!!! I wan cry~~~ SOB SOB...

One day didnt play keyboard is like making me feel mad! Now i hav nothing to release stress, disappointments and so on. My keyboard... When will u be back? I cant live without you!!! How shud i live without playing keyboard? I;ve been playing it for 3 months but now... It's gone... GONE... Just like tat, gone... Sigh... Buddha, plz bless me... I hope that i can continue my life without being crazy... PLZ BLESS...

Went to watched Sweeney Todd yesterday. It's freaking disgusting seeing the barber (johnny depp) cutting his customer's hat. It's even disgusting when Mrs Lovett use human flesh to make her pie and got the best selling price in the town! yucky yucky!! But overall the movie is nice... Just tat it's disgusting.... :)

Starting from tmr, i'll be freaking bz... Is it a good thing? YES i guess... Meetings, studies might comfort me, tired me and ease me from sorrow... Might make me forget everything... For me, there's nothing in this world is beautiful. Nothing is fair. Nothing is happy. I shall give up in everything, because the world is ugly with people like that living in it. Human... Wat a pathetic, useless animal! Wat a shame... Shame on me... Shame on you! Damn me! F*** everyone! PEACE IS SHIT!