SKligious

A Story..

2010-03-30T16:18:00.004+08:00

This is a story of a prince and a princess..

Once upon a time.. there was a princess.. named.. Princess Sophie Kristen.. she fell in love with a.. monkey.. after going through all sorts of challenges.. they kissed.. and.. ta da!! the monkey became the prince.. his name is.. Prince Merlyn Kenniston..

They lived happily.. but not yet ever after.. not yet..

They lived in a small house.. A house where they thought it shall be their sweet little palace forever ever after.. Although they faced a lot of obstacles staying together in the little house.. they were happy.. the house was comfortable.. the piglets.. and the birds.. and the naughty monkeys.. were nice and friendly.. although they were not very clean.. but one day.. A fat ugly looking wolf in red hat.. has destroyed their sweet little house.. the birds fly away.. the monkey moved to other place.. and the piglets.. leave the sweet little house.. left the prince and princess..

The Prince and the Princess had no choice.. but to look for another sweet little house.. they wish..

... to be continue

My closest friends in the world..

2010-03-30T16:10:00.005+08:00

I miss them always.. hehe.. they are the most important person in my life!! shh.. i didnt tell them about this..! hehe..

4th Day of Work

2009-06-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

Today's friday, 19th June 2009. It's my 4th day of work.. How do i feel? hmm.. I feel.. complicated, frustrated, confused, happy, sad, suffer, blur and etc etc. Mixed feeling i can say.. It's really tiring remembering this process, that process, approvals by who and who, do and dons.. Aiks!! Lucky Ah Dear keeps on be patient with me and motivates me throughout the week. Thank you Dear!!

Its really difficult to begin a life in IBM because I have to get new friends, get used to the new working environment as well as the new staying environment.. time to work! Alrighto! Jia You SK!! Go go go!!!!!!!

Miss miss miss!!!

2009-06-14T00:53:00.001+08:00

I miss them so much!!! MISS MISS MISS!!! I miss them a lot!! hmm.. Crazy me..

I miss my family already!

2009-06-13T12:00:00.001+08:00

2009/06/13, I moved to Pelangi Utama, Bandar Utama, Damansara, to begin another step of my life. I have to go through many challenges this time: the challenge of living away from my family, the challenge of communicate with house mates (this is the very first time!), the challenge of getting around with colleagues, challenge of getting used with my work, etc etc.

I know this choice of working in KL is always my dream, to live without my parents' help is always what i want, to let my brothers independent is what i must, and letting go is a necessity in my life. But, now, at this moment, i really miss my family so much! Exspecially ah Zun! A week before i came to KL, Zun had been sticking with me all the time! Even when sleeping! He told me that I'm goin to KL soon so he want spend every single minute with me even when sleeping so i let him sleep with me for that week. Hmm.. When i woke up just now, and i didnt saw his face, i cried.. I MISS HIM SO DAMN MUCH!Though he is feaking naughty, but he listens to me so well. He dun listen to my parents, my elder brother, but he do listens to me! I'm very worry that he'll become bad when he gets older coz no one talk to him or observe him. hmm.. Daddy mommy i really hope u two take good care of my brothers. Hmm.. i miss them so much!

I really cried a lot already. I dont want to be a stupid lady who only knows to cry! I must be strong! I must get over everything! I must earn enough money, go back my hometown, open a cafe, and be with my family again..! Yeah.. Tat's my dream! My bf told me that he want to move to KL forever. But I dont. I did told him before that i will not stay forever in KL. Not what i want. But he told me ytd that he want to stay KL forever. I can't leave my family behind. If i have to choose, family first! So i'll stick with my plan, earn money now, do business in Melaka later.

I'm graduating!!

2009-06-11T02:20:00.000+08:00

Wow! Oh me god! its been almost a year since i update my blog! Actually i did open my blog and check the comments from time to time, just that too bz and lazy to update my blog..

What am i so bz for? hmm.. Good question! After my industrial training, i went bac Melaka, my precious hometown and move on in my last semester of studies.. During the 6 mths stay in Melaka, chaos happens in my house. The truth was reveiled and at first 3 of us (the siblings and me) were totally not used to it! I myself 100% cannot get used to it. I was emotionally brokedown! Luckily i got an understanding and caring darling beside me at this very time. If i have to face it alone, i think i'll be depressed!

However, time flies, and i'm getting over this emotinal breakdown pretty well now. My family is getting over the chaos pretty well too! At times, i were wondering, is it because i'm leaving them in 2 days time o they really do get over it? Mommy especially i'm worry about, and Tao. Plz.. Plz love yourself and your family.. I dun wan to pray to god.. coz mostly wat i pray will always happens in the opposite way.. But plz.. Live lif

e to the max and appreciates what you got now!

Anyway, that's not the only thing that i was bz during the 6 mths time. Second thing that kepts me bz was my darling dear! Ever since i got into this relationship with him, I've been so bz every weekend~We spend most of the time together during weekends because he only bac from his college during weekend. I'm~~ not so sure whether he's the one, but to be frank, he is a very good person. Compare to the previous ones! And we sacrificed for each other and love each other very much. I dun dare to talk about happily ever after, but i am very happy with him NOW. About future, let the FUTURE ME handle bout tat.. Though he got one weakness, which is very emotional! But i'll get over it.. haha.. God bless him! This is him!

I love his smile.. Very cheerful!

Well, you must be curious about where the hell am i goin in 2 days time? Haha.. Not very far.. Just goin over KL to begin my OL life! I'm commencing my employment in IBM Damansara next tuesday! It a good news rite? But i heard lots of rumors that workin there sux! Is it real? Well i'll ya next week! haha..

Wokie dokie.. Its time to send my car to check.. (so that i will not get involved in accident on the way to KL.. I dun wan die b4 i can repay my parents!) Gotta go.. Adios!

Fucking Politicians

2008-09-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

Why? I dun understand! Seriously dun understand even a tiny little bit on what the heck is in their fk mind! Ever since i'm here in Selangor or some said KL, all i'd been hearing in the daily news are regarding MR AI wanna take over the damn bloody power to control Malaysia. Isnt there more things that were much much much much more important in this world other than fightin on who's got the controlling poower over this small country?? Frankly speaking i dont really giv a damn on who's our leader. I'm more concern on global warming, taking care of the handicapped, donating to the poor among the poors.

When everyone araound me bz commenting on the current government, i saw plenty of beggars in the street. But no one there helping them! I tried once, in pasar malam, giving each beggar RM 1, guess how much i donated?! Bugger!!! Isn't this an issue worth discussing for other than politics??!

Malaysia economy. Fucker it was freaking damn poor now. Look at our currency RM. LOOOOK! How much does it worth now? How much can we exchange our RM to pounds? ACCA fees RM 700+, but 50 over pounds only. SO SAD!!! My dear boyfriend exchange RM with pounds to pay for his exam fees. When i look the the amount of pounds he exchanged, oh me god~~~ So few only?! Isn't this a topic worth discussing for?

Malaysia weather. Even worst!!! Malaysia global warming is getting worst and worst over these days. It can be very very hot and too sunny in the morning, but raining heavily iin the evening. Did we had this kind of weather 10 yrs ago?! NO! Isn't this an issue worth discussing for? But look what we Malaysian did?! We always complain and complain about how failling our government is. I got no right to comment on whether is this true o not. But since we have this energy to complain, protest, discriminate and fight, why don't we spend our bloody time to take care of this illing world and economy???

I'm really sick with those people who keeps on commenting but never act!!! So pleeease god, can you plzzzz change these people's mind and guide them to live happily???

Oh my god... what happen to this world???!

Working hard... Healthy life...

2008-07-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

OHAYO.... hahaha... it should be konnichiwa actually since its now 7pm already! Still in office but didnt work. Instead, i got the permission to online... soooo freakin happy.. Okay.. I want to talk about my working life in KL. Till now, after a month and a half stay in Kelana Jaya with my aunty, i am more than great! Kinda relaxing actually. No need study at night, no assigments, only work in the day, relax in the night. I was kinda lucky coz i got a very nice aunty who is an excellent cook, baker and player :) She lives a very healthy life here. Morning walk with her bunch of old friends in the morning around 6.30am. Went with her once, it's freaking early! I can barely wake up! But i still managed to wake up and went oout with her. I guess it's my first and last man.. Laugh my ass out!

My aunt has 2 daughters. One is friendly, lovely. Another who recommended me to train in her office is like big sister kinda people. She talks softly, serious. At first i wasn't so get used to it. But after some time, we got along! Though she's quiet but she's caring. She got the ambition to adopt a child and help the poors. She thinks that she must contribute and help the others when she can earn money. It's cool rite? haha...

What's my thought licing in KL? hmm.. Other than rushing for bus on Fridays to go back Melaka, others are fine! I hate that Pudu bus station. Those people were harsh, rude, creepy and they look at me one kind. Fucker! I hate that place but what to do? I still have to go there because i wanna go back melaka c my daddy and mommy...

Oh no... It's time to go home... Will update this blog again once i got the chance to on9. Chiaoz! Luv everyone who view my blog!!!

What a month!

2008-07-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

Wow...! Its been a while since my last blog! Industrial training had finally started and it's already been a month! Now got 5 more months to go! Frankly speaking i am quite enjoying my life here in KL, despite the fact that i have to work here!

hmm... It's not as bad as i thought in my working life. So far so good. Over a month i saw joy, happiness, angry. Yeah.. I get scolded sometimes in my work place. But it's still not that bad! I still can get through with all these! I am seriously getting more happier and cheerful back in KL. I got nothing to worry there. My aunt is cooking damn nice food everyday. She got really good talent in cooking. Everyday different menu, different dishes. She bakes as well! Cakes, bread you name it. She can bake it out. haha... It's really different living with my aunt than living in my home. My fren asked me. Do you miss home? I thought i miss but i didn't. In fact, i miss my family instead of missing home. haha.. Because there were so much to do at home!!! hahaha... I am soooo bad!!!

Within this month, i cried a few times, laugh even more than i live in melaka, and met some new people. Waiting at Kl bus station is a very frightening task. I dun like traveling there but i have to. haha.. It's anyway one kind of experience though. Very the funny. Few frens asked told me that i were so brave working in KL alone. haha! This means that SK will do whatever she said! That's why I'm in KL now. To prove that i can do it!!! hahaha...

yawn... nitez.

~The End~

2008-05-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

Whew! Everything has an ending... So is my final exam! So nice the feeling. After 3 weeks of hardwork, tiredness, sleepiness, boringness and so on so forth, finally my exams' over! This is the second last final exam in MMU. Next Saturday, I will be off to KL and starts my industrial training life. I am seriously very superb excited of this coming 6 months. Hopefully i can really enjoy this 6 months and learn something new, academically, emotinally as well as phsychologically =p

Alright. What did i do after my exam? hmm... Good question. What else better that I can do other than go Karaoke and express my talent, singing?! haha.. I think i sang like nobody business yesterday and sorry to my frens for holding the god-damn mic so long. We had an early birthday celebration with Florence as well. Happy Birthday to you gal! At the end of the night, we had a little huggies among ourselves. So very touching! This is the last gathering i guess. hmm... I have mixed feelings now... Happiness, sadness... I'll sure miss them.

I got some comment from my frens and cousins regarding my blog. Some said my blog is emo, some said im cam whore?! haha... I'm proud of that! Im young now, i want to take as many pictures as i could now. I dun wan to wait till my wrinkles come out. By then i will not take pictures anymore coz i'll look ugly! haha... I might be emo, but it's becoz of the environment im living, thet im encountering now. I'm still a happy go lucky girl! Dont worry couz! I wil not lost myself! lmao!

Drunk

2008-05-15T12:08:00.000+08:00

Can drinking helps problem solving? Well, i just encountered a situation where, yeah, drinking can really solve the bloody problem. But i think it's only applied to people who are not a frequent drinker. She drank a quarter bottle of Johnnie Walker in addition 4 cans of smelly stouts. argh... This gal really scared me off in the middle if the night. Damn it! It was a tiring Sunday after studies for final exams. See how bad i look:

Can imagine how tired am I? =) sigh... Students... Ok back to topic! I was called at 2.30am ( hell i can still remember the time! ) , getting ''informed'' that somebody was acting very weird. She was drunk! What the dut! Made me worried whole night, couldn't get good sleep! ish... Anyway, she was drunk becoz of some problem, some relationship problem, in addition with her health problem. She couldnt take it anymore, couldnt sleep every night, worrying about this and that.

Everyone said drinking cant solve problems. But hell it can help the person to relax! I can tell. Im not encouraging people to get drunk everyday. But if you really pissed off, drinking yeah can help you to relax! =P But peace of advice, nothing is impossible! After wake up, its a beautiful day again! Smile and make it a wonderful day!

Daddy bought some bird nest some days ago. Sooo pure sooo nice! Different with those we had previously. He said he bought this because im goin to KL soon! How sweeeeeet... Love ya dad! Because of mother's day and father's day, we bought some presents fot them. Mom got a pair of ear rings and daddy got a pen with he name on it. We also bought a cake for grandma and another pen for our aunty ( sth to cheer her up! ) Hope they like it...

LET GO... what a thing to learn

2008-05-08T09:35:00.000+08:00

Let go, is difficult if you want to let go people you love. I had let go someone because I loved him so much that i know letting go is good to him.

My parents have to let me go because they loved me soooo much that they know that letting me go is the best choice for my hapiness.

People who do not let go of their love ones are selfish. Its super hard to let go, hell i can tell! But, if letting go will make the people you love happy, then no point keeping them with you! Everyone has the right to feel happy, i feel happy if i keep him, but he wont be happy if he stays here, therefore i let go. The more you love him, the more you love her, the more you must learn to let him/her go. It's the basic task of love-let go. Before you love someone, learn to let go first!

Ha! Every sentence above has the word 'let go'. At last i experienced and learned this theory. Im proud of myself because im sooo "伟大"!

Cheers~~

Final Papers...

2008-04-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

ARgh... The hardest time of the semester has arrive! Final Exams!!! They said this is the time where the lecturers test whether you learned whatever shits they taught during the 4 months. hmm.. Guess what.. I dun think exams are important anymore because i had realized that no matter how freakin excellent u did in your academy, without luck and bunch of LIES, you CANT success in the freaking black dark world outside! ( When i was walking around my campus today, It was so pretty and so green. I started to realize how innocent is my campus compared to the fucking real world! Gosh i will for sure miss my campus! )

Anyway, back to my topic, I still have to study for the sake of my decreasing CGPA, and for my aims to join the BIG 4 after grad. No matter how useless the exams were, I still need a good result as a passport to enter large firms. That is why i had started my revision on the 1st chapter of my Advanced Taxation subject b4 i spend my bloody time on this blog again due to the boredom created by the study. Aiks... Taxation taxation... What a devil subject. It's not difficult i must admit but i was absent for quite a number of classes and missed out quite a lot of lectures. Cant really understand without proper studies. SHIT! But i must pray hard for my Accounting Theory subject because other than the two chapters that i was required to present on, i dont understand even one chapters. And FYI, it needs memorization!!! Damn it.. That's theory. Other subject is OK, at least can understand, i guess... It depends on my brilliant brain to write shits on the papers after understanding the subjects. I can hardly memorize thing. Man i cant even remember what i said 5 minutes ago! Dun believe? Ask my dearest friends who beared with me for such a long period. They must have freaked out some times. Sorry! I will try to remember things. I promise =P

Talking bout exams, i must write something bout the my classmates. In accounting class, It is soooooo freakin common that the students are Singaporean type of people, those kiasu type or in English, scared to lose ( direct translate.. haha ). They will tell everyone on earth that they havent start to study even a single words, that they were soooo lazy to study, that they went karaoke instead of study. Well, Fuck them. Don't trust a single word from accounting students because they talk cock. They will stuck in their rooms, sitting on a chair for 12 hrs or even more to chew the books and notes. That's what they do during exams.

I can even predict they behavior after exams. They will tell you that they did badly in the exams, that they cant remember a single words, that they got no time to finish the paper. Well, Fuck them as well. They are obviously telling lies. Why did i say that? Its simple. Because they did extremely WELL and always scored above 3.99, which is 4.0. Not enough? 4.0 is the highest score! Only those who got poor results will tell you the truth. It is similar with the real world. Only poor people will talk about friendship. Try it on the rich one. They cant wait to pull you down and they dont even border to talk to the lower class of people. Take it. This is the real world. Sad right. I was borned as an innocent, happy girl. But i grew up become a bugger who always complains bout how bad is the world in my blog.

No matter what, life goes on. So, i always asked myself: Why live as a sad person? The world wont changed no matter I'm sad or not. The people dont give a damn. Everyone, piece of advise. BE HAPPY till the end of your life. THE WORLD IS PRETTY IF AND ONLY IF YOU THINK IT IS PRETTY. Don't live like me. I am trying my best to think that the world is pretty. Giv me some time... Muaks!

One Day Takin Over The Bloody Biz

2008-04-29T10:05:00.000+08:00

Dad's in trouble this week, cant pick up his hp for around 4 days already. Customers who'd been callin his handphone but couldn't get thru were starting to call to my house phone. Mom's kinda sick with all the phone rangings and fax coming. No one else can help much coz this is our bloody family biz.

We've been tru hard times on last weekend. Mom was exausted, worried, can't get sleep for nites. She's damn worry about daddy and other matters that came with daddy's case. I couldnt help much coz im freakin poor in advising people i guess. Wat i can do is helpin them to handle the two brothers, chores, and cheer things up a little bit.

Today, mom's not around. She's on the way up to KL to solve the problems with some friends. Hopefully everything will be fine after today. But those fucking (oops... shall say LOVELY coz they are our income source... LMAO!) customers were soooooo desperate, needed some alchohol to clear their minds, called to my house to make orders. Who's incharge when I'm the only human in the house? ME! Though tis is not the very 1st time i help in delivery, but i got one customer here who order like half an hour ago, and wants the 6 bloody btls of alchohol in 15 minutes!! What the fuck?! So, I, whom planned to take a nap before receiving his call, have to run all the way down to find those bloody bottles of alchohol, pack it and make it available for sale. It not that i hate him. Just that i hate people disturbin my nap! Slept for 3 hours only last nite, i seriously freaked out! This people disturbin my day plan! Not that he ordered a lot. Say want to send to PD immediately. Then why on earth now only u open ur bloody big smelly mouth to order? Cant you make it earlier like yesterday o wat. As if i care la. But sad thing is, i can only say this in my pity blog which i didnt update for some time, instead of pointing my short finger at his big nose and tell him str8 away! ISH!!! Calm SK, remain CALM.

Another fax came in after EQ fax. Pretty scared when waiting the fax to load. haha. But guess wat. It's an order from JB!!! I can only deliver up to Melaka. Area out of Melaka, sorry la my dear, u guys have to wait..

Takin over the biz for even one day only would already make my life upside down. I guess daddy will have to shut down the biz after he retires because my elder brother told me that he don't like this alchoholic industry. I only like to drink, can help out a bit, but those carry stuff and entertainment, i got a problem to handle it! Not easy for a lady to get into this biz, unless I am very very very very open minded lady, which i think i havent reach tat level of open minded =P. Poor daddy no one can help him out! Younger one might like his biz coz he is also a bloody alchoholic (though now we insist that he can only drink RIBENA when we hve our wine) but hey man, he's just 8 now. It's too young to say anyting now! hahaha...

Wokie... Nothing to write anymore. Im using my time soooo efficiently that i can blog while waiting to meet the bugger (lovely) MR Z to come get this 6 btls of liquor.

H.A.I.H.....

2008-04-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

My msn status: C.O.N.F.L.I.C.T. This is really SIEN!!!

Reason? Damn lot! First, i quit aerobics club because i got no time and energy to go duty anymore. And i kinda bored with the club d. So, i quit. But problems seem arised when ppl start thinkin tat i was overly reacted, saying that i quit because i was scolded by someone else for my irresponsiveness, telling me that i shouldnt act so seriously. SWEAT! Quiting the club is actually a small matter but it seems like a huge matter to many people. Why Why??? What happened? I also don't really know.

Secondly, it happened on my parents. They are acting so freaking weird recently. Probably this is why i felt soooo freaking bloody pressure these days. They are like so different compared to they were 10 yrs ago. What happened? Is it me who changed or them? Their attitude is like so diferent now. Or are they were like this all the while just that i didnt notice? This is so annoying! I don't feel like telling them anything anymore because they don't keep secrets. Hell no. Also, my mom loves to comment my daddy infront of us. Comments as in third party XXX. Shit everytime she started this, i really pissed off. He is my dad and i respect him. End of story. Summore we don't even know whether it's true o not!

Thirdly, it's my dad! Oh man as i expected he just can't accept that i'm goin to KL. We don't really directly talk bout tis topic before but he knows that im goin there. He don't like it i can c it on his face. He never asked me anything of my training and i don't know how to tell him either since we dont hav a conversation like this b4. But today, the problem has rose. My uncle asked him why let me go KL? Why not stay in Melaka? Then he told him that he don't want to talk to me on this topic coz he said i will sure not happy with this. So, he also don't want to care bout tis. Alright then, even no one helps me on this, i still have to go there. I don't hope for his help either ever since he show me his face again! Come on, I'm going to KL for 6 months only! t6 months! And it's just KL! Not oversea also. As if i wont come back anymore. What's the problem man? I don't understand at all! Everyone is not supporting my decision but they asked me to make a decision. Shit la.

My friend asked me what makes me so pressure? I went home, think bout tis again and again and I guess these are my answers.

As a result, my philosophy is still correct. "Trust nobody and the one who can help you is always you. Depends on yourself, don't depend on others". Drink a couple cup of wines, then sleep like nobody business, wake up tomorrow and it'll be a new day. Way to go gal!

My friend, all the best!

2008-03-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

Dear friend,

There is something i wanted to tell you since long time ago, but i didnt because i scared that you will upset after listened what i said. Therefore, I say it here. Whether you read or not, well it depends already :)

Didnt you noticed that you had changed a lot after you got into this relationship? Especially recently. Look at this semester. How many times had you came for class? I guess i can count it even with my fingers! I can sign for you for life but please dont take things for granted. Remember what you told me about you-know-who? You told me that she was so bad for not going to classes and you said that it's good no one signed for her. It can force her go class. Well, do you know you are becoming her now? I guess i will do the same thing to you now. So that you can go back to class. Sorry my friend!

SEriously i dont want to lose you as a friend because i really like it when we were together back in those days. But we seldom see each other now also. You were always busy and not in class. I really hope that you can balance yourself between FRIENDS, BOY FRIEND & STUDIES.

All the best my friend! Ganbatei Kudasai!

Election... Please do watever it's good to Malaysia, MR POLITICIANS

2008-03-10T01:27:00.000+08:00

DAP won a lot of seats in this 2008 election! Wow... It's a good thing ritE? Well, we'll see the results soon. Ganbatei DAP! Good for you! Please make sure you guys wont fight over each other k! Im a fan of peace and dun really care who is the leader for Malaysia. What i really do care is, a peaceful life and good improvement for Malaysia. Please do your job well ya... ^o^

2 mid term exams next week! After tat, mid term break lor... hohoho... After da event i really feeel free. SO freaking relax now. (-_-!!!) Not even feel like studying. But seriously i must work harder now! Results dropped a lot since past few semesters. I wasn't tat scared before this. But after the interview at Horwath for my IT, i am really scared. I think they care for results more than anything else! I think that's why i couldnt get to work there. SK SK, ganbatei kudasai! Stop playing with your life and starts to care for your own life now ba! I must strive for my career in this few years time!!! =p

Now is 10:08am. In an hour time my couz wil come and pray my grandma and grandpa and all the nenek moyang. Well, she is getting married soon! It should be a good, great, wonderful, romantic news, if she's older. She's now 17 only. Not even a mature gal. Sweat!!! Anyway, all i can do is WISH HER ALL THE BEST!!! I'll still give my full support to u couz! Though we are not tat close. (-_-)

Went to work yesterday for a wedding dinner. Coz daddy and mommy went Genting, me n bro hav to handle the function. First time though. I handle the promoting part, while bro take the carrying and opening wine part. One of my aunty also worked together but she was a bit shy at first. For me, i think she was not tat willing to help out. Wonder why she agreed to help in the first place. She said this kinda job is kinda not good. lol. Well, i never tot of that problem before man coz dad was with us everytime. Anyway, there were another 2 promoters as well. They really did a great job! Out of 10 cottons, we managed to sell 8.5 cottons! Even at Hotel EQ we didnt sell that much man! Really out of our expectation!! Not bad huh for the first function we handle! But i really need to make a comment here to the clients. They were not enjoying the wine, they were drinking the wine like water only! Sien~~~

Oops! Time out! Gotta go fetch my dearest bro now. Chao~~~

Japanese Culture Night 2008---DONE!~

2008-03-03T13:33:00.000+08:00

After months of hard work, at last the event comes to an end! I'm sure gonna miss it since this is the very last event that i'll organize in MMU. LAst event in my University life~ hohoho... Luckily i didn't fail in the event. Still can be consider a success! yay!!!

Tomorrow is my birthday lor... I used to think that birthday is an important day of my life! But as i grow up, i think it's nothing much to celebrate also. haha... Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEE!!! Dunno whether he will remember or not??? :P

Oh my god having a laptop is sooo cool!!!! Can carry it here n there and soooo convenient! Daddy oso bought a set of speakers to me and it sounds really fantastic!!! Thank you daddy! Luv ya! haha... I know that you want me to be the happiest gal lall the time... I'll try dad... Seriously i will :)

Horwath just called me for an interview on this coming Friday. haha. Should i go Horwath or KL? Well, i think i will go KL. Melaka got a lot of happy memories but also the sad ones. I think i need to go out a while to get those out of my mind.

YAWN... Wat next? Mid Term exams coming. I think i'll start print y notes and start study... hohoho!

Busy life!!!

2008-01-30T00:32:00.000+08:00

Dear god, plz provide me with more dancers and performers for my Nite... Amitofo...

Sigh... New semester just only started and i already hav meetings until 12pm for these two days. I wonder until wat time the meeting will end tmr...? Hopefully earlier! The Culture Nite is going quite well, except that there are obstacles of course... This year our even clash with others and we hav to share the hall in order to hav the hall decorated. Sad thing is that we can only hav rehearsals after 9pm, which is quite late for us! Oh my god... Pening! Now i hav to find models and dancers for the nite. sigh... So difficult to organise event for JLS coz the budget is sooo freaking tight. Luckily the band didnt charge us anything except the 100 bucks for the drum set. Really appreciates their coorperation! hmm... Guess we must be more creative to hav designs and plans which have low budget and high performance. Next challenge shall be the tix selling!!! Hopefully it goes well lor...

Tired but cant go sleep. Y? No idea.

My only true heart fren has gone.... GONE!!!

2008-01-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

My only fren tat accompany me during these days, so long my fren, so long! My uncle had just took my dearest keyboard away and im feeling sad!!! I wan cry~~~ SOB SOB...

One day didnt play keyboard is like making me feel mad! Now i hav nothing to release stress, disappointments and so on. My keyboard... When will u be back? I cant live without you!!! How shud i live without playing keyboard? I;ve been playing it for 3 months but now... It's gone... GONE... Just like tat, gone... Sigh... Buddha, plz bless me... I hope that i can continue my life without being crazy... PLZ BLESS...

Went to watched Sweeney Todd yesterday. It's freaking disgusting seeing the barber (johnny depp) cutting his customer's hat. It's even disgusting when Mrs Lovett use human flesh to make her pie and got the best selling price in the town! yucky yucky!! But overall the movie is nice... Just tat it's disgusting.... :)

Starting from tmr, i'll be freaking bz... Is it a good thing? YES i guess... Meetings, studies might comfort me, tired me and ease me from sorrow... Might make me forget everything... For me, there's nothing in this world is beautiful. Nothing is fair. Nothing is happy. I shall give up in everything, because the world is ugly with people like that living in it. Human... Wat a pathetic, useless animal! Wat a shame... Shame on me... Shame on you! Damn me! F*** everyone! PEACE IS SHIT!

I hate you!

2008-01-21T12:16:00.000+08:00

I hate you! Every moment from now on, i hate you! HATE HATE HATE... Some said its very hard to hate someone. I say its even hard to love someone. So, i choose to hate! Yes! From now on, I HATE YOU!!! Im sorry but i have to... I cannot dream nor lie to myself. You will not be back here anymore. So i cant hope that what u told me b4 will happen in future. It's all bullshit for u i guess...

Just back from Singapore last week. How was the trip? hmm... Kinda boring! Y? Coz Sg people live a very busy life...Except the 1st two days, which i went out with frens and to some travel spots, the remaining days were boring. Tot can go there "visit" the night life, but too bad my couz didnt bring me go. Sigh... Spent the remaining days there shopping and shopping. Luckily bought some new clothes. But one thing i treasure in this trip to Sg is tat i got closer with my couz and aunties. FIrst time i visit their house, and meet my couz whom i very close to but didnt meet for 7 yrs? (i guess its 7)

Went to some places in Sg. Went Science centre, Niu Ce Sui (china town), Mount Faber, Sg Terminal and Night Safari... And sight seeing around Sg in a cab! haha... Guess wat.. The cab is FOC! Coz the uncle is my aunty's fren... So kind of him... I oso wan a guy like him... But more handsome one pls... haha!

CNY is coming lor... Not yet help mommy to clean house. hoho.. Will start tmr! Ganbatei!!!

a Famosa trip with acc-ing club

2008-01-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

Spent the last weekend with a few accounting club members. 1st time go out with them. haha. Quite fun. Though it's a bit bored there coz nth much to do but we stayed at the villa! Tat's the most interesting part coz the place where we stayed was very very peaceful. Unlike those towns adn cities, i can smell no polluted air in that area. I felt like stayin oversea coz the villa really ah mo style one. Got swimming pool and lots of green trees and grass. Because the entrance fee was so expensive for all, we only went into the water world. But also took many ss pix at cowboy town! haha.

Sien ar.. Dunno whether my singapore trip still on o not. HL said better go on 20+ coz his mom can bring me around. But im not free during that time ler... Still waiting for his call. If can then i'll be in Sg tmr. If not, I'll be on my bed tmr! aiks...

I can feel that my Cafe Dream might works one day. I told daddy n mommy bout my idea bout the Cafe. They kinda like my idea and was so supportive. But daddy says:' No matter wat u plan, it'll ny can be executed AFTER ur degree.' haha... yaya i know i know. The plan must slowly work out only can. But wat i afraid most is the idea will be used by someone else in future time ler... aiks... I need more creativity and plans! Gambatei!

Chat to Jason recently. Told him that i'll go disturb him after my grad! haha. But need save money lor. Or else i cant afford to open a Cafe and go Australia! hmm... Money Money... haha... Im so money minded now ooo!!! Oh me godddd...

Final Exams SUCKs!!!!

2008-01-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

oh my god... Madam Lim, score well in ethics doesnt mean that one will behave ethically in future. So there's no need to prepare a paper which is sooo freaking hard la! Oh man... When i look at the paper i was like... F***! Really damn it! So as the audit paper.. Unexpected Questions man... sigh... Hopefully wont fail lor or else i really F*** up man...

Two paper in a day can kill a person like me who need 8hrs sleep daily. Every Exams will shortened my life one year. So, i got 2 more final exams.. 2 more years to shorten. lol. Tired... After makan wan go sleep! Feel so down today man!!!

WELCOME 2008!!!

2007-12-31T21:08:00.001+08:00

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My Dream May Come TRUE!

2007-12-29T01:50:00.000+08:00

I found in newspaper that government is having this project of letting ppl aged 18-30 to go New Zealand work+travel! YAY! This is really i great opportunity for me to go out and see the beautiful, wonderful, fantastic world! I hope that this program will still on until year 2009. After my grad, i'll go New Zealand! But it was stated that it would be better if we can go on December coz they need worker during that period and it was the peak period for traveling. I am still wondering whether i should go there str8 away after grad or wait till december. But it'll take me half a year to stay there since the program allows us to have visa to stay there for 6 months. hmm.. think think think..

Yesterday mom told me lots of stories from one of my high school fren. Though i'm not very close with her but still i dun really have a good impression on her. Mayb i was not that close with her i guess. But she had good results and she was quite popular during high school time. I was the noob. :p Anyway, i was suprised that she hung up with my mom's good fren's son. Since then, her good fren starts complaining about my fren and kutuk her gao gao! haha. My mom got tell me everything and i listen lor. But they broke up recently due to some problem and i was shocked when my mom told me that she tends to create disputes between my mom's good fren and her son. sigh... But from my opinion, I dun think my fren is serious in this relationship. She is using him only for her own benefits. From what i heard, i had this opinion.

Everything is fine...

2007-12-27T05:52:00.000+08:00

Oh my I'm getting even lazy these days... Didnt study much till now :p

Mom just came back from the MRI scanning and the result is--->Nothing wrong with the brain and her ENT. Oh wei! She looks so happy with the result and went to work again. Haha... She cant just sit quietly but that makes her a good mom. hehe... But today it's me who feel a little dizzy. Maybe it's just my illusion o what... Got influenced by mommy i guess.

To9 feel so bored! Instead of studying, I keep on sleeping. Jenifer just told me tat this year xmas so no feel! I am so agree with her man... Feel like the hole in my heart getting bigger! Especially when i went to Jenifer's house to watch the caroling. Oh man! The Santa Claus looks just like him! I wanted to go hug him man haha... I'm sure he'll be the one playing guitar if he is still here. Cannot Cannot i must go sew the hole up so that I can go back to the me that i used to be. That's why im here typing tis stupid blog.

Planned to go Singapore after final and it'll be me 1st outstation solo travel. Haha. This is my own travel! Feel excited yet a bit scared. Hmm.. Really wan to go out "shan shan xing". Staying in melaka only makes me feel sigh.. Suprisingly, I think i recovered from my break up with JS. I think i never fell in love with him b4. lol. It's purely replacement i guess. That's why i dun feel that hurt. But I still cant recover from my 1st broke up. sigh. Time is all i need. Sien ar... Still hav to take how long?

I'm Sorry

2007-12-26T13:27:00.000+08:00

Got this from a fren's blog. Love this very much! He really got talent in writing this kinda thing. I tried to do this before but somehow my vocab isn't tat good and therefore cant express what i want to express in a correct way. Check this out!

sorry.
it is hidden quietly somewhere in a corner
joining other truth that has been concealed
waiting for someday for them to be revealed.

ive long forgotten that little space,
as i tried as hard as i could to forget,
i've forgotten that little corner where so many things were forgotten there

i'm almost there.

but sometimes the reverie before the traffic lights turning into green
or just an untitled melody i played with my fingers while falling asleep in the office
or the sleepless nights that seemed like blood were oozing out within
would remind me of them.

sorry,
i have to hide the hardest word in the world,

simply because i love you so.

Fantastic isnt it?

MERRY XMAS!!!

2007-12-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

It's Xmas eve! Sent a lot of sms to friends and couz early in the morning. Went to Xuan Cafe with frens and that's my Xmas eve. Sounds bored but anyway it had past. Everywhere is jammed, and all i can see on the road are cars, and more cars. In Melaka got not much to see during Xmas. The famous spot is Portuguese Settlement where the houses are suppose to be well decorated. However, it's very disappointing every year that the residents there isn't that creative and were mostly lazy to decorate their houses. So, what they do in Portuguese Settlement? Of course it's countdown and spraying ppl who went there with snow spray! That's all and a lot of Melaka citizens squeeze their life there, walk 30 min from far far away, just to countdown! haha.. That's what youngsters like me does.

Kai Ko Vincent gave me a very cute present which i wanted to buy since long time ago but got no money! So happy yor... Thank you ah ko! Thx for being there for me in this critical down time of mine! Really appreciates it! I promise I'll not give up my life easily! :)

Mom got really sick today ( yesterday). She was so suffered until she cried! Zun zun saw her crying he ownself also cried. Luckily he listens to me and stop crying infront of mommy. lol. What a cutie little brother. Naughty yet good boy. It's really weird that mommy's ear got noise woo-ing 24 hours nonstop and it really annoys her. Went to a specialist in Putra, and is taking MRI scan on Wednesday. It is bloody expensive! RM 800++ for scanning the head only. sigh... But this kinda money cannot save we know...

The Wedding Day...

2007-12-24T03:00:00.000+08:00

From the bottom of my heart, congrats to Ing Ing - the happiest lady in the world on 22-12-2007! She got married yesterday and I was her ji mui! haha... She was my colleague when i was working in Italy Bakery. She's treats me quite well when i worked there therefore when she asked me to help her to become her ji mui, i str8 away agreed! Though her wedding wasn't that grand and merry like those i attended, but she's happy. That's the most significant thing.

My lady boss said:" At last, he got married!" haha... Ing is very innocent. Like me, she was not good in love affairs and she was the same people like me (actually i used to learned from her when i worked there). Those men that she met were junk. They were loan sharks and useless brat. Some even got 4 wives already but still wan to chase Ing Ing. Asked her become his 5th. F*** him man.

But she met with this guy who are a sales manager who has a very good background and they fell in love! It's been 1.5 yrs they in luv and now... dang dang... they marry! What a happy ending... Cheers to her! Wish her happy forever and hope she will stop her play gal thing... I know its hard but im pretty sure with her husband's luv, she will change it!

Also, the day before yesterday, me n JS decided to stop this replacement thing. I told him wat i feel and he told me how he feel. Good thing also we come to that decision because i know that i cant depends on others to solve my problem. Good luck my fren in everything! I will not forget our friendship! Hope you can get what you hope for and become a boss as you wish!

Oops I did it again!

2007-12-21T16:36:00.000+08:00

I m sorry for not having any feelings on you. I just got failed in love affairs and all i want is friendship not a close relationship with u... Hope u understand...

Im feeling sooo bad these days. I dont laugh as i laugh before; I cry a lot more now; I make myself smile everyday so that people around me wont feel bad with me. I hate the me now. I prefer the me i used to be. The me who do not know anyting, who were still innocent and blur. Being crossed in love is just a small matter, i used to think. JS said i can recover by finding a replacement and he can become my replacement. lol. Thx u so much but does it really works? Well, till now i dun think so. It's me who keep on troubling you i guess... Shit i really wish to go back to the past and delete the happy memories i used to have so that i wont feel that bad now! Oh man come on SK u r lame!!! U must not keep on being in the past. There will always be a better tomorrow! Look forward!!! SMILE... I tell this to myself everytime i cry. Sigh... Self psycho.

Xmas is coming... Dunno wanna go out with who. Worst come to worst, who oso dun wan follow.
Stay at home study suan liao. I dun like this xmas la... Makes me think a lot of sad thing. Sien. Suppose to study today but somehow, no mood to study man. Damn it! The weather is sux, mood is sux, and everything's sux! Come on man.. The world should be a happy world but wat am i doin here sighing and doing nothing. How i wish i can go around the world now. I wan to go beach, watch sea... go Japan see their technology.. go Korea eat barbecue chicken, go America Hollywood, go Australia find fren, go New Zealand see their farm, go Paris drink coffee, go visit Mars...

What m i doin here wasting my bloody time looking at the boring screen typing this freaking blog? Well, it's because im stil under parental control! Thx to those f**king criminals who rape so many gals, who killed so many innocents and ... ( ARGHH... THEY ARE JUST PIECE OF JERK WHO CONTRIBUTE NTH TO THE SOCIETY, BUT CRIMES AND BRING INNOCENTS TO DEATH ) Because of them, my lovely parents think this world is so dangerous for a gal like me to go out alone. Oh man... I'm waiting for my industrial training so that i got reason to move out and stay alone without parents' control. If not i'll never learn and go everywhere.

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2007-01-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

(Yawn...) Spent half a day outside with Renee, Fishball, Li Ee and Yap. Feel like so long didnt go out with them and I feel so happy going out with them today. It's kinda like seeing old frens after a long while, although we got meet each other in campus sometimes la. lolz... I like going out with only a few frens but not a bunch of frens, like we used to previously. It's much much easier in making decision on where to go wat to do and less argument.

We went for a movie first around 12.20pm. Watched Night at the Musuem. Nice man.. Wont regret for paying the tics to watch. So funny and i luv the ending! HAPPY ENDING~~~ Later we went for lunch at Padang Pahlawan. Ate 乌东面 which costs me RM5.50 + a RIBENA RM 1.80. Not bad but i prefer the Korean 海鲜拉面. Anyway, we shopped for around 30minutes before bowling. Darn i feel like sooo freaking regret for buying new clothes so soon. Now i have no money to buy clothes at Padang Pahlawan man. I dun even dare to try on the clothes afraid that I'll buy if i try them on. However, i still got tried some la. Afterall it's kinda weird for a girl who went to shop without trying any clothes. hohoho~~~

I didnt play bowling but watched them playing. Yap scored highest 66, Renee 55, and last is Fishball 20sth only. lolz... I was thinking about him when they were playing sial. Now i understand why songs always got "I cant stop thinking of you". Aiks... Its happening on me now. Anyway, I can feel that i'm slowly recovering now since I found out that: There's no point for me to be unhappy also wat... If he got contact me then I just be happy lor... If not, there's nothing to lose also. lolz... Lame...

Eeee... Just now Mr. "hak yan zhang" Pat Pat YM me. I didnt reply him because he is soo damm cheap man. Acting like wanna chase me behind of gf but infront of gf, he dun even dare to look at me man. LAMO!!! FXXX HIM!!! !@#$@$%!

Nothing much happened after that... Just normal stuff and help daddy did something bad to society of Melaka or even JB. My sincere apologize to them. Lolz...

^u^ The Truth ^u^

2007-01-10T00:31:00.000+08:00

Went with his good fren for lunch today. I was wondering why I agreed to eat with him. Maybe it's normal fren stuff o wat. Anyway, briefly knew what is his problem already. Got it from his fren. 原来, he was facing relationships problem. "苦笑!" Why? Because i asked him b4 whether it's relationship problem but he said no wor... Lolz... He really got no feeling on me.. Now i'm seriouly no regret of my decision to give up on him. Aiks... That's what i always do... GIVE UP! Dunno y when cum to Girls and Guys thing, I just cant give in. No confidence i guess. I had seen a lot of unhappy couple. Including my parents. Maybe tat's y i got no confidence in this kinda stuff. Pity ya...

Okay.. So today still failed to forget him. Adoi... However, i found something to keep my mind occupied! Guess wat? Its puzzle! Suddenly feel like playing puzzle. Then, i took the one i bought few years ago, 1000 pieces-F4 poster puzzle. 1000 PIECES man....! Wow... At least by puzzling, i wont think of him to much la.

Going to Langkawi on next next week. Dun really hav the mood now but hopefully i will got the mood in two weeks time. Really wish it will be a good and nice nice trip. Heard tat the Ferrero Vochelle there is damm cheap. 30biji for RM18+ only.... I WANT TO BUY TAT!!! I think I'll spent damm lot of money for tis trip. Damm... I should knew tis since Im going with a bunch of rich kids. A bit regret for joining them now... Shh... Cannot let them know tis... Talking about Langkawi, heard from his fren tat he is at Langkawi today. Lolz... Now im thinking about him again! Darn!

Tat's all about today. Better sleep b4 my pimples get more and more!!! Goodnite!

''u'' << A New Day Has Come >> ''u''

2007-01-09T11:33:00.000+08:00

Blimey... Yesterday too tired until no enerygy to update blog... Actually planning to update after taking a nap at 11.30pm. But somehow, I failed to wake up and sleep until this morning. haha...

Had a chat with Sg Biao Jie yesterday. Told her bout my feeling with 小金人and she gav me some advice. She told me to tell him wat i feel towards him straight away and dun popo mama. She is quite true but anyway, I wont do that because i m afraid tat we wont even be fren later. LMAO!!! She also told me her experience. She said that she like a guy b4 and she tell him that she like him. The guy's didnt reject but he act like he dun like her. Then she was so angry and tat's all for their friendship. Now, she also got a bf already. He's her good fren that they've known each other for almost 10yrs! haha... She said that its better to accept a guy who like u more than u like him. yeah... I AGREED! Tat's y i was thinking not to be so 执著 anymore. If we got 缘分, we'll get together at last also. I didnt reply his sms yesterday. I think it's a good step to 放开! Wish me luck! haha....

I put this title "A New Day Has Come" because i want to be back the normal LSK, the one without Feeling with any guy. Only myself, family and frens. Tat's all. It's kinda difficult since i still keep on thinking about him whole day! I even dream about him. Bloody Hell! haha... Sounds stupid but this really happened! In my dream, there was not only me n him but also my frens. We were so happy. I was so happy. Can feel tat 幸福 even when i was awake. lalala~~~ haha... 原来只要能够和他一起，我就非常开心! Eventough we are not couple. eee... Sounds sooooo freaking 肉麻!

Anyway, I'LL DO MY BEST! I'll try and try not to think about him and keep my mind occupied with other stuff. I'm goin to rent my lovest 小说 and read. YEAH!!! GANBATEI KUDASAI!!! 加油哦，喵喵。天下无难事，只怕有心人！你一定可以从这一切抽身出来的！

A tiring day

2007-01-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

Oh my~~~ Today is really a very tiring day man... Went to shopping at JJ with family early in the morning from 10.30am till 6sth pm. Sounds crazy but it really happened! Anyway, tis isn't the 1st time la... lmao! Bought a few new clothes for CNY. Looks nice when i tried in JJ but dunno why when i try them on at home, i felt i shouldnt buy those clothes la. Why? hmm... Daddy said its not nice at all and it doent look fashionate enough... In addition, he blamed my mom didnt help me to pick nice clothes. Mom was freaked out when she heard tat. Then, arguements begin. Damm it! I feel that im a BLOODY PEST for causing all these troubles man... aiks... 伤脑筋呀...

I tried to pleased both of my old buddy here but somehow i just dun feel happy lor. Just take tis picking clothes as example. I cant actually get any useful tips from them to choose the clothes i want. So far, i didnt actually buy clothes on my own due to financial difficulties. So, i have to go out with them to buy if i wan them to pay for me... hehe... Conflicts occurs between 2 generations when come to fashion lor. My dad prefer me to wear sporty but mom prefer me to be lady like... funny rite? they cant come to a compromise or watever... hiah... My bro told me tis:"我喜欢的衣服他们都不喜欢，他们认为好看的衣服，我都觉得还ok罢了。所以，我不喜欢和他们一起去买。而每次出去时，我都好像在应酬他们，买他们喜欢的衣服." Bro also have the same feeling with me. haha...

When my mom told me about Irene, my dad's "close gf", that my dad will like watever Irene did, i was so annoyed. I really wish that i m couraged enough to ask my dad whether he got an affair with Irene. haih... 好烦！My frens said that our family's relationship is very good. My dad is very sporty, my mom is very nice person. I was laughing inside when i hear tat everytime man. Our relationship is good? Wat i see through our relationship is pretending and pleasing each other! chiu~~~!

Finish bout my family, now is my own problem. Although i know that i shouldnt put too much feeling on someone who dont like me but 他妈的 i cant stop thinking about him! Bloody Hell... We now communicate much much lesser and i'm getting weird when didnt chat with him one day. 我现在的心情好像在被他牵着走, 能够和他谈天, 我就已经很开心! 感觉好变态哦! 干脆喜欢“兔子”就好了嘛! 干吗去喜欢“小金人”啊! "兔子" 人又好又体贴，我干嘛不喜欢, 却喜欢对我毫无感觉的小金人! Stupid Sial!!!

Today, in the very first week of January 2007, i cried. Haha... I cried in the bathroom while bathing and let the water carry my tears away. This is a negative symbol to achieve my 2007 LSK Vision. Anyway, I'll try my best to reach my vision. GOOD LUCK TRACY! U CAN DO IT!

First Blog

2007-01-07T01:19:00.001+08:00

OHAYO~~~!!!.... its 1 o'clock in the morning and i just started my ever 1st blog! I wonder how long my blog will last since i'm not really sure tat i'll update my blog from time to time... Anyway, i'll just try...

What inspired me to start a blog? Well, i wanted to find someone to talk to but somehow i tot of nobody who willing to listen in addition i dun want to make my frens think i'm a pessimist. The moral of my life: Make everybody around me HAPPY!!! aiks... In real world, human wont be satisfied and no matter how much effort in put in, they just wont appreciate it. As a result, no matter how much effort i put in to make people around me happy, it just dont work! PATHETIC ya...

SO, tat's y i created a blog hoping i could throw my "sorrow" away through the blog, and share my happiness with it oso... hohoho!!! Can i do tat? Let's see!

Just now i went to Italy Bakery together with my mom. My mom is working on the bakery's account and got no time chit chat with me. As a result, i spent 2 hrs doing nth there but looking people walking around. It was so damm boring and i was hoping that someone could call me or sms me to chit chat... Actually i was just hoping of someone else la. hehe... however, the "someone" i was thinking did not contact me... But, "someone else" who i rejected before contact me and we did some chats. looks like he had recevered and now we can talk as usual... Its kinda SAD becoz i rejected someone who loved me so much, but instead, i like someone who wont like me... NONSENSE rite... ceh...

aiks... its all for now... although i still have to throw a lot of thing out... lmao!!! chiaoz... nitez...