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My Dream May Come TRUE!

I found in newspaper that government is having this project of letting ppl aged 18-30 to go New Zealand work+travel! YAY! This is really i great opportunity for me to go out and see the beautiful, wonderful, fantastic world! I hope that this program will still on until year 2009. After my grad, i'll go New Zealand! But it was stated that it would be better if we can go on December coz they need worker during that period and it was the peak period for traveling. I am still wondering whether i should go there str8 away after grad or wait till december. But it'll take me half a year to stay there since the program allows us to have visa to stay there for 6 months. hmm.. think think think..


Yesterday mom told me lots of stories from one of my high school fren. Though i'm not very close with her but still i dun really have a good impression on her. Mayb i was not that close with her i guess. But she had good results and she was quite popular during high school time. I was the noob. :p Anyway, i was suprised that she hung up with my mom's good fren's son. Since then, her good fren starts complaining about my fren and kutuk her gao gao! haha. My mom got tell me everything and i listen lor. But they broke up recently due to some problem and i was shocked when my mom told me that she tends to create disputes between my mom's good fren and her son. sigh... But from my opinion, I dun think my fren is serious in this relationship. She is using him only for her own benefits. From what i heard, i had this opinion.

Everything is fine...

Oh my I'm getting even lazy these days... Didnt study much till now :p

Mom just came back from the MRI scanning and the result is--->Nothing wrong with the brain and her ENT. Oh wei! She looks so happy with the result and went to work again. Haha... She cant just sit quietly but that makes her a good mom. hehe... But today it's me who feel a little dizzy. Maybe it's just my illusion o what... Got influenced by mommy i guess.

To9 feel so bored! Instead of studying, I keep on sleeping. Jenifer just told me tat this year xmas so no feel! I am so agree with her man... Feel like the hole in my heart getting bigger! Especially when i went to Jenifer's house to watch the caroling. Oh man! The Santa Claus looks just like him! I wanted to go hug him man haha... I'm sure he'll be the one playing guitar if he is still here. Cannot Cannot i must go sew the hole up so that I can go back to the me that i used to be. That's why im here typing tis stupid blog.

Planned to go Singapore after final and it'll be me 1st outstation solo travel. Haha. This is my own travel! Feel excited yet a bit scared. Hmm.. Really wan to go out "shan shan xing". Staying in melaka only makes me feel sigh.. Suprisingly, I think i recovered from my break up with JS. I think i never fell in love with him b4. lol. It's purely replacement i guess. That's why i dun feel that hurt. But I still cant recover from my 1st broke up. sigh. Time is all i need. Sien ar... Still hav to take how long?

I'm Sorry

Got this from a fren's blog. Love this very much! He really got talent in writing this kinda thing. I tried to do this before but somehow my vocab isn't tat good and therefore cant express what i want to express in a correct way. Check this out!

sorry.
it is hidden quietly somewhere in a corner
joining other truth that has been concealed
waiting for someday for them to be revealed.

ive long forgotten that little space,
as i tried as hard as i could to forget,
i've forgotten that little corner where so many things were forgotten there

i'm almost there.

but sometimes the reverie before the traffic lights turning into green
or just an untitled melody i played with my fingers while falling asleep in the office
or the sleepless nights that seemed like blood were oozing out within
would remind me of them.

sorry,
i have to hide the hardest word in the world,

simply because i love you so.

Fantastic isnt it?

MERRY XMAS!!!

It's Xmas eve! Sent a lot of sms to friends and couz early in the morning. Went to Xuan Cafe with frens and that's my Xmas eve. Sounds bored but anyway it had past. Everywhere is jammed, and all i can see on the road are cars, and more cars. In Melaka got not much to see during Xmas. The famous spot is Portuguese Settlement where the houses are suppose to be well decorated. However, it's very disappointing every year that the residents there isn't that creative and were mostly lazy to decorate their houses. So, what they do in Portuguese Settlement? Of course it's countdown and spraying ppl who went there with snow spray! That's all and a lot of Melaka citizens squeeze their life there, walk 30 min from far far away, just to countdown! haha.. That's what youngsters like me does.

Kai Ko Vincent gave me a very cute present which i wanted to buy since long time ago but got no money! So happy yor... Thank you ah ko! Thx for being there for me in this critical down time of mine! Really appreciates it! I promise I'll not give up my life easily! :)

Mom got really sick today ( yesterday). She was so suffered until she cried! Zun zun saw her crying he ownself also cried. Luckily he listens to me and stop crying infront of mommy. lol. What a cutie little brother. Naughty yet good boy. It's really weird that mommy's ear got noise woo-ing 24 hours nonstop and it really annoys her. Went to a specialist in Putra, and is taking MRI scan on Wednesday. It is bloody expensive! RM 800++ for scanning the head only. sigh... But this kinda money cannot save we know...

The Wedding Day...

From the bottom of my heart, congrats to Ing Ing - the happiest lady in the world on 22-12-2007! She got married yesterday and I was her ji mui! haha... She was my colleague when i was working in Italy Bakery. She's treats me quite well when i worked there therefore when she asked me to help her to become her ji mui, i str8 away agreed! Though her wedding wasn't that grand and merry like those i attended, but she's happy. That's the most significant thing.

My lady boss said:" At last, he got married!" haha... Ing is very innocent. Like me, she was not good in love affairs and she was the same people like me (actually i used to learned from her when i worked there). Those men that she met were junk. They were loan sharks and useless brat. Some even got 4 wives already but still wan to chase Ing Ing. Asked her become his 5th. F*** him man.

But she met with this guy who are a sales manager who has a very good background and they fell in love! It's been 1.5 yrs they in luv and now... dang dang... they marry! What a happy ending... Cheers to her! Wish her happy forever and hope she will stop her play gal thing... I know its hard but im pretty sure with her husband's luv, she will change it!

Also, the day before yesterday, me n JS decided to stop this replacement thing. I told him wat i feel and he told me how he feel. Good thing also we come to that decision because i know that i cant depends on others to solve my problem. Good luck my fren in everything! I will not forget our friendship! Hope you can get what you hope for and become a boss as you wish!

Oops I did it again!

I m sorry for not having any feelings on you. I just got failed in love affairs and all i want is friendship not a close relationship with u... Hope u understand...

Im feeling sooo bad these days. I dont laugh as i laugh before; I cry a lot more now; I make myself smile everyday so that people around me wont feel bad with me. I hate the me now. I prefer the me i used to be. The me who do not know anyting, who were still innocent and blur. Being crossed in love is just a small matter, i used to think. JS said i can recover by finding a replacement and he can become my replacement. lol. Thx u so much but does it really works? Well, till now i dun think so. It's me who keep on troubling you i guess... Shit i really wish to go back to the past and delete the happy memories i used to have so that i wont feel that bad now! Oh man come on SK u r lame!!! U must not keep on being in the past. There will always be a better tomorrow! Look forward!!! SMILE... I tell this to myself everytime i cry. Sigh... Self psycho.

Xmas is coming... Dunno wanna go out with who. Worst come to worst, who oso dun wan follow.
Stay at home study suan liao. I dun like this xmas la... Makes me think a lot of sad thing. Sien. Suppose to study today but somehow, no mood to study man. Damn it! The weather is sux, mood is sux, and everything's sux! Come on man.. The world should be a happy world but wat am i doin here sighing and doing nothing. How i wish i can go around the world now. I wan to go beach, watch sea... go Japan see their technology.. go Korea eat barbecue chicken, go America Hollywood, go Australia find fren, go New Zealand see their farm, go Paris drink coffee, go visit Mars...

What m i doin here wasting my bloody time looking at the boring screen typing this freaking blog? Well, it's because im stil under parental control! Thx to those f**king criminals who rape so many gals, who killed so many innocents and ... ( ARGHH... THEY ARE JUST PIECE OF JERK WHO CONTRIBUTE NTH TO THE SOCIETY, BUT CRIMES AND BRING INNOCENTS TO DEATH ) Because of them, my lovely parents think this world is so dangerous for a gal like me to go out alone. Oh man... I'm waiting for my industrial training so that i got reason to move out and stay alone without parents' control. If not i'll never learn and go everywhere.